"Reaching for the light" Courtesy of the Pizzaonian Art Institute, Abe Straction, curator (C)2010)
No matter how free we think we are, the world or its people will leave its imprint on you. We are the sum total of our experiences and they have left their psychological mark. Make no mistake about it; it is as true as the coming of death. If the person you need to be and the person you are is in conflict - the question is, what to do about it? First, recognize it. To face this reality with clear and determined purpose is the first step to freedom.
Confronting this demon will require facing some very uncomfortable truths about yourself that are very difficult to resolve. If you believe you are an independent person, it will be even more difficult when you discover that the yoke of this imprint is much stronger than you ever imagined. This realization will create some self doubt since you believed that you were free from issues that you thought long ago resolved.
The next realization is the stirring of strong emotional conflicts that reveal the depths of your denial about basic elemental truths about your true feelings – feelings that you thought had been dealt with in the past. As a mature person that has not had to deal with deep seated emotions on this level for a very long time, this can be a roller coaster ride unlike any you have been on before.
First the good news: To have this dilemma show itself in your life at this point probably means that you are at the beginning of a new re-birthing process that can bring positive change.
The bad news is for the good to happen, you are going to face some very difficult and trying moments that can bring you down into the depths of despair. However, if they are faced with determination and courage that self discovery requires, the difficult times will be overcome and you will find yourself at the beginning of a new and exciting creative period in your life.
What will your choice be? Life or death? Let’s not confuse this death with physical death; however, that might be easier to deal with. This death is the emotional death of yourself and your special gift that the world will never see because the courage to live it was never obtained. If you live a long life and denied your authentic self to exist, and you have time to reflect on this at the end, you will sense the tragic loss this is - not just for you, but for those whose lives would have been better because your gift was allowed to be.
And if this be the case, at the very end, when there is no time to do anything else but die, you will discover the true meaning of despair.*
Pizzaonius
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*Excerpts from Pizzaonius's introductory remarks to newly portalized Pizzaonians
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